Happy New Year's !!!!!

Well I just played for 15 minutes this morning and won $200!! I'm done for today. Taylor & I are going out to have fun, go kart & games yea! Then New Year's Eve with my girl. As Chris Cagle says what a beautiful day! I have a big suprise for Kassi tonight. I know she's a lil stressed because some a-hole broke into her car last night. Hopefully this will make her feel alot better. I think she's deserves this. She has been working so hard and I know she doesn't feel like she ever can get ahead money wise. I want her to leave tomorrow with no worries so she can totally relax and enjoy her friends and family in Oregon. I am goin to do all I can to insure this because it will make ME happy. I'm a giver and I love to give everything I have to someone who deserves it. She does! As I said before What a Beautiful Day!!!!

Artist/Band: Cagle Chris
Lyrics for Song: What A Beautiful Day
Lyrics for Album: Chris Cagle

Day one, I stumbled through hello on 5th Ave
Day two, we grabbed a bite to eat
And talked all afternoon
Caught a movie on day fourteen
And day sixty-seven she said "I love you" to me

Oh, what a feelin'
What a wonderful emotion
Yeah, what a life
Counting my blessings and knowin'
Ooh, we had our ups and downs
All along the way
She had a chance to leave
But chose to stay
What a beautiful day
What a beautiful day

Day one-sixteen I asked her what she was doin'
For the rest of my life
Day one eighty- nine, oh I almost lost that girl
To my foolish pride
She said "I do"
On day four eighty-two
And gave me a son
On day seven sixty-one

Oh, what a feelin'
What a wonderful emotion
Yeah, what a life
Counting my blessings and knowin'
Ooh, we had our ups and downs
All along the way
She had a chance to leave
But chose to stay
What a beautiful day

Day eighteen thousand two hundred and fifty-three
Well, honey that's fifty years
Yeah, here's to you and me

Oh, what a feelin'
What a wonderful emotion
Yeah, what a life
Counting my blessings and knowin'
Ooh, we had our ups and downs all along the way
She had a chance to leave
But chose to stay
What a beautiful day
What a beautiful day

Day one
I thank God I said hello on 5th Ave

Well I decided not to take a break.

So I'm +$500 since my last post. Went to Media Play's store closing sale and got 8 CDs for only $50. I got 50 Cent's new one, Big & Rich's latest, Toby Kieth's Greatest's Hits 2, Billy Squier's Greatest, Def Leppard Rock of Ages 2 disc collection, Garth Brooks, and one for Kassi I think she'll like. Taylor & I heading to Opryland to have fun it's our last night together. On a side note I've found out the kittys really like silly string. OMG it's the funniest thing I've ever seen. Tay & I almost crapped our pants we were laughting so hard. Im horrible

I'm inching closer to $20k in career tournament wins on Poker Stars. That doesn't include sit & go's. Just regular buy tournaments. Im so happy Ihave a bankroll for the WSOP in Tunica next week!!! My cashes on Poker Stars follows,courtesy of thepokerdb.com

Viewing Player: MICADOO
Total Winnings: $19,876
Total Final Tables: 12

Tournaments Played: Date Tournament/Event Place Winnings
12/26/2005 Hold'em NL $10 21 $60
12/26/2005 Hold'em NL $5+Rebuys 100 $30
12/24/2005 Hold'em NL $5 149 $9
12/12/2005 Hold'em NL $5+Rebuys 86 $39
12/05/2005 Hold'em NL $5+Rebuys 5 $1,407
12/05/2005 Hold'em NL $20 9 $51
11/30/2005 Hold'em NL $5 71 $17
11/30/2005 Hold'em NL $5+Rebuys 61 $57
11/27/2005 Hold'em NL $10+Rebuys 67 $130
11/25/2005 Hold'em NL $5 122 $11
11/19/2005 Hold'em NL $10+Rebuys 17 $362
11/16/2005 Hold'em NL $5+Rebuys 17 $209
11/03/2005 Hold'em NL $10 66 $21
11/03/2005 Hold'em NL $3+Rebuys 96 $31
11/01/2005 Hold'em NL $5 7 $239
11/01/2005 Hold'em NL $5+Rebuys 116 $29
10/02/2005 Hold'em NL $3 102 $6
09/27/2005 Hold'em NL $10 13 $112
09/16/2005 Hold'em NL $10+Rebuys 21 $209
07/11/2005 Hold'em NL $150 6 $2,376
07/10/2005 Hold'em NL $3 135 $5
07/03/2005 Hold'em NL $10+Rebuys 27 $220
06/26/2005 Hold'em NL $3 43 $15
06/07/2005 Hold'em NL $10 48 $30
04/18/2005 Hold'em NL $10 25 $61
04/06/2005 Hold'em NL $30 10 $206
04/04/2005 Hold'em NL $10 44 $38
04/03/2005 Hold'em NL $200 181 $342
03/28/2005 Hold'em NL $5+Rebuys 54 $37
02/20/2005 Hold'em NL $10+Rebuys 66 $97
02/08/2005 Hold'em NL $10+Rebuys 17 $379
02/02/2005 Hold'em NL $10+Rebuys 80 $78
01/29/2005 Hold'em PL $10 25 $36
01/24/2005 Hold'em NL $5+Rebuys 14 $108
01/23/2005 Hold'em NL $20 18 $159
01/23/2005 Hold'em NL $200 167 $368
01/23/2005 Hold'em NL $50 17 $99
01/22/2005 Hold'em NL $10 53 $48
01/19/2005 Hold'em NL $150 30 $264
01/18/2005 Hold'em NL $5 102 $7
01/18/2005 Hold'em NL $10+Rebuys 12 $363
01/13/2005 Hold'em NL $10+Rebuys 9 $505
01/13/2005 Hold'em NL $10+Rebuys 18 $218
01/09/2005 Hold'em Limit $100 11 $140
01/06/2005 Hold'em NL $20 4 $818
12/30/2004 Hold'em NL $10 21 $55
12/28/2004 Hold'em NL $10 5 $536
12/27/2004 Hold'em NL $3 47 $13
12/23/2004 Hold'em NL $10+Rebuys 23 $128
12/22/2004 Hold'em NL $10+Rebuys 51 $78
12/15/2004 Hold'em NL $10+Rebuys 3 $2,593
11/16/2004 Hold'em NL $10+Rebuys 27 $188
11/13/2004 Hold'em NL $10+Rebuys 45 $107
11/12/2004 Hold'em NL $10+Rebuys 9 $474
11/08/2004 Hold'em NL $10+Rebuys 5 $1,821
08/18/2004 Hold'em NL $20 15 $108
08/02/2004 Hold'em NL $1 14 $15
07/30/2004 Hold'em Limit $200 13 $2,035
07/12/2004 Hold'em NL $1 47 $3
06/04/2004 Hold'em Limit $30 12 $68
05/22/2004 Hold'em NL $20 2 $302
05/17/2004 Hold'em NL $20 10 $88
04/21/2004 Hold'em PL $10 19 $31
02/22/2004 Hold'em Limit $100 3 $1,188

I don't always win.

-$700 since last post. Oh well still up Over $1k since xmas. I ready for New Year's Eve. I have a feeling it's going to be the best one EVER, as long as someone doesn't party too much tonight. lol I proboly should not play for awhile. I'm tilting a lil bit right now. Not playing my A game right now. The ups and downs of the poker life. I'm heading to the WSOP Circuit event in Tunica next week. Can't wait. It will keep my mind off Kassi being gone. I'm very happy for her getting to go home.

Having Fun!

That's one of the things life is about right? Of course as long as you are responsible in other areas of your life. We'll I'm having fun +$430 so far today, lunch with kas, and spending the rest of the day with Taylor. I had fun with kassi and her friends from work last night, as you can see from the pic. I didn't sleep good so after lunch today i crashed till around 7pm. I've been checking into a limo for New Year's the lowest qoute I've gotten is $800. I've paid for half of it with my play today. I'm going to sleep on it.

Sat thru Today action..

+ $1500 it would be $2000 if I didn't play in the $530 buy in tournament Sunday. I played way to loose in it and busted out in 45 mins.I cashed in 2 small tourneys yesterday and all my profit is from $100 to $200 heads up matches. I really am ready to become a full time pro, get out of my apartment and travel alot. That's one of my 2006 resolutions. Quitting smoking, I've already begun my nicorette. lol

Kassi & I have decided to work our problems out together. I don't want to lose her and she doesn't want to lose me. I don't ever want to feel like she is going to miss out on something in life because of her relationship with me. I want her to know the opposite. She has the freedom to do what ever she wants to do. I want her to be happy. In the last few days I think she realizes that if she let me go she just might be doing what has caused her anxieties now, missing out on something great. Our philosphy now is one day at a time. I'm super low maintanence and she realizes it now, I think. I don't need much to be happy, I'm happy because she's going to be my Valentine!! :)

Merry Christmas!!

Im playing in the Million dollar tournament on Poker Stars right now. I won three entries to this tournament in the last 24 hours. That's +$1500. First pays $176,000 in this tourney. Im on it LOL...

A Free Entry Into The Big One Tomorrow & My Christmas.

I won a 500 FPP satelitte to tomorrow's HUGE tournament on Poker Stars. Should I cash out the $520 entry or play since I won this seat for nothing. 1st place will pay close to $200k. I'll see how I feel . I've been playing my best lately.
PokerStars Tournament #16660245, No Limit Hold'em
Freeroll Super Satellite
213 players
$2120.00 added to the prize pool by PokerStars.com
Total Prize Pool: $2120.00
Target Tournament #16314386 Buy-In: $530.00
4 tickets to the target tournament

Tournament started - 2005/12/24 - 14:15:00 (ET)

Dear MICADOO,

You finished the tournament in 1st place.
You qualified to play in Tournament #16314386 and are automatically registered
for it.
See Tournament #16314386 Lobby for further details.

If you choose to unregister from this tournament your account will be credited
with $530.00 Tournament dollars. Tournament dollars can be used to buy into
any tournament.
Visit our web site at http://www.pokerstars.com/tournaments.html for more
details.



Congratulations!
Thank you for participating.

Today was wonderful. Taylor, Kassi's Family. I try to be very thoughtful, it's one of the most satisfying things to do in life for me. I love making others happy! It makes me happy!!! :) I will remeber the last 90 days very well and I know that 2006 will be the BEST year ever in my life. I really feel it!!!!

Kassi & I have decided to just date for now. It will be difficult for me because I don't trust myself in this situation. My heart is still wounded and if someone treats me well I'm going to have a hard time ignoring them. Hell that's what brought me and her together. I don't want to lose her, I still hurt because of the possibilty of losing her exsists and the fact that when something very hurtful to me happend in her life, she want's to break up, "just date" and possibly do it again. I only want her to be happy and if our relationship can't answer the questions she has, It might never be able to. I guess I'm a lil conceited, I know I'm a great catch, but if your not catching there's nothing I can do. I guess I could wait but it will not be easy. I feel like running away but something tells me to wait. I will for a while. As I said before when she leaves in a week it be a major test for me. I don't want to meet someone else, but If I do, I hope it's someone who wants the same things that I do. True Love, God, Family, is ready to travel the world and LIVE life outside the grasp of the grind. Dah that's why I didnt date under 30. There's nothing wrong with what Kassi wants right now in her life. I respect her descision about us. I understand but then I don't because I am the biggest BRAT.

I have to refer to the lyrics of Kieth Urban's You'll Think of Me..... It really hits home with me right now. Because this is the way I feel at this moment and the horrible sleepless morning I had a few days ago. I'm a fighter but I guess I need someone to fight for me for a change.

I woke up early this morning around 4am, (actually around 7am)

With the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate. (N/A) lol


I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep, (sure did!)

But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake. (yep)

Ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms, (the way it made YOU feel about us)

I've been tryin' my best to get along. (I will)

But that's OK, ( i want you to be happy)

There's nothing left to say, but: (I've said all I can)




Take your records, take your freedom, (that's what u want)

Take your memories I don't need 'em. (THEY WILL HURT TOO MUCH)

Take your space and take your reasons, (I will too.)

But you'll think of me. (and I'll think of you.)

And take your cat and leave my sweater, (LOL)

'Cause we have nothing left to weather. (Do we?)

In fact, I'll feel a whole lot better, I Do!!

But you'll think of me, you'll think of me.




I went out driving trying to clear my head, (yep)

I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left. (i'm trying)

I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this, (lil bit)

And all the baggage that seems to still exist. (kinda)

It seems the only blessing I have left to my name, (maybe a few more)

Is not knowing what we could of been, ( oh I know )

What we should've been, so: (hurts)




Take your records, take your freedom,

Take your memories I don't need 'em.

Take your space and take your reasons,

But you'll think of me.

And take your cat and leave my sweater,

'Cause we have nothing left to weather.

In fact, I'll feel a whole lot better,

But you'll think of me.




Some day, I'm gonna run across your mind, (think so?)

Don't worry, I'll be fine, (yep)

I'm gonna be alright. (always)

While your sleeping with your pride,


Wishing I could hold you tight.

I'll be over you,

And on with my life.




So take your records, take your freedom,

Take your memories I don't need 'em.

Take your space and take your reasons,

But you'll think of me.

And I'll think of Us. When it was PERFECT. It was the best. It was. G'nite........

Doing Well

Im +250 so far today and doing well in the $10 rebuy tourney down to 440 players Im in the top 100. 1st pays 13k. I'm excited about tomorrow. I haven't been out in a while. :)

The two Michael's....

Im +$200 so far today. That's good for having AA vs q7, KK vs 98, & AK vs A5 all cracked heads up, or I'd be up $500.

Im very conflicted right now. I have two voices in my head, thus the two Michael's. One is telling me to cut my losses and move on with my life, the other, which I've never heard before, is telling me to wait. I have been asked to wait, I've never done that before and vowed that I never would. One Michael is very bitter right now, the other is more understanding. The advise I get from others is run like hell, r u stupid or what? One Michael agrees with them, one thinks they don't understand the situation. I wish I could turn it off that quick. I'm not making a decision till next month. I am going to enjoy the holidays with my family and friends. I want to make the right decision and see what happens between now and then.I promised I would wait and not give up. I will for a while. Next month when everybody's gone will be the true test of me and my true feelings. Michael vs. Michael. One will be happy to be alone, one won't. One is ready to give up, one is not. One is ready to be single again, one is not. One is selfishly trying to protect me, the other loves unconditionally. I am bipolar!!! crap lol Sorry not taking drugs here. All I can do is pray for proper guidance, that is the true prescription. Problem is, will I listen? I hope so. No matter what happens I'll know I'll be fine, what ever the result, and I'm not worried about it, just conflicted. I know what I REALLY want and need, everybody that knows me knows too. Merry Christmas to ALL!!!!

Back in the saddle again.

+150 is a start. Playing better poker because I'm at peace once again. I won't be playing for a while with the holidays coming up , maybe a few head's up matches Fri, then proboly alot of play Sunday. It would be nice to get in the $500 nl tourney. I can say I'm neither happy or sad right now, I'm kinda nuetral. Does that mean Im bipolar? Plus with 500 miles of driving tomorrow it's kinda hard to get excited about starting at 5am. Oh, I might have a lil time to play tomorrow evening after all.Long as Taylor doesn't empty my account while I'm gone. lol I'm joking Taylor.

Communication.

This is paramount to any type relationship. Kassi and I are getting better at it. It's been hard for both of us, but neither of us are quick to draw lines in the sand. We may not communicate effectively all the time but I feel we are learning from our mistakes and we can both move foward in a positive way. I value her happiness over most anything in my life. I've never met someone who deserves it more than her. I never want to be the cause of any negativity in her life, ever.

On that note I thank the power of prayer. It has cleared my mind and saved my sanity. Christmas is going to be WONDERFUL this year and im so excited!!! But I still need a few stiff xmas drinks!! lol Im horrible.I've been losing my ass at poker because I've been playin while I'm emotionally drained, not a profitable combo at all and I know better I just didn't give a crap. MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!

Love & God.......

Why does life have to be so complicated? Why do people have to hurt? Love, what is it? What does it mean? Why can it be takin and givin so freely. What makes people change in ways that hurt me so badly? Why does temptation cause love to perish? Is it satan? I don't know. I have temptations I don't stop in my life. Smoking, just not truly being a child of god all of my life. I have temptations I can control because of the person I truly am. I guess it's your make up, your character. I have been wounded more deeply than I can ever remember. The worst part is if I deserved it I could deal with it so easily and move on. I can't deal with this and moving feels on like it will kill me. Im 38 yrs old, my lifelong dream is to have a family with someone who truly loves me, that's all I ever wanted. It's simple, but has been impossible to achieve in my lifetime. Yes I have a beautiful son, but I haven't had a family since my father passed when I was 14. Yes I've been married but I've never had a wife, a ring, a wedding. I've made it through life pretty well because of my abilty to block out what's really missing in my life ....Love & God. When u have what you think is love and it's gone without explaination it only highlights the dreams never achieved in my life. I feel so unfulfilled, yet is seems so simple. Love and God. That's all one ever needs to be truly happy and fulfilled.

The beauty of all this is the unconditional love of 3 people in my life Jesus, my Dad and my son. Without them I would perish. I have prayed about this and I have been given direction. My direction is to fight with all my might for someone very dear to me. No matter how bad I want to give up on them and move on. In the same prayer I realized that I must rededicate my life to christ if not just for me but for my son. I feel like today is a turning point of my life . I have two paths to chose from, the on on the right..God's path or the left ...the path of self destruction. I pray Iwill make the right choice. The 1st test will be Jan 1st when Taylor leaves and I will truly be here alone. I need to remember that God will always be with me. Oh this christmas is really beginning to suck. The worst part is I thought it would be the best one ever. Life is cruel sometimes. Least nobody has died. lol

Very Nice to Get Email Like This One....

From : PokerStars Support
Sent : Thursday, December 15, 2005 4:22 PM
To : MICADOO@HOTMAIL.COM
Subject : Results for PokerStars Tournament 16555868



PokerStars Tournament #16555868, No Limit Hold'em
Buy-In: $500.00/$20.00
2 players
Total Prize Pool: $1000.00
Tournament started - 2005/12/15 - 17:04:05 (ET)

Dear MICADOO,

You finished the tournament in 1st place.
A $1,000.00 award has been credited to your Real Money account.


Congratulations!
Thank you for participating.

Cha ching!!! Took me 20 minutes to win that!! Thats $25 a minute. LOL Well as you can see the roll continues. I figured I'd step it up today. Tuesday was a wild ride. I lost nearly $1000 playing $200 heads up matches and went from $1050 in my Pokerstars account to $60. So I played heads up for $50 and won, then heads up for $100 and won, then 3 more $100 heads up matches won all of them. So I now move back up to $200 matches and I go 4 wins vs 2 losses. I retire to bed with $630 now in my account. I wake Wednesday and go 4 and 2 again, back to where I started Tuesday $1050. Wow.
I definitely have gamble in me, or as they say in the poker world, "Balls". I sat down today and played a head's up for $500 against some dude in Europe, as you see in the above email, I love taking cash from freakin foriegners!! This is America's game dammitt!!. Now I'm up nearly $3000 since Vegas a month ago. Yes, a very nice Christmas bonus.
I found out that Taylor actually arrives at BNA tomorrow night!!! Yea!! Merry Christmas Everyone!!!

Must be nice to have $10 million just sitting around...

Phil Ivey is what 28 yrs old and never had a real job, My Hero.

FSN Will Hold $60 Million Tournament

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Players Will Buy In for $10 Million

Fox Sports Network has teamed up with soon-to-be-launched Mansionpoker.net to sponsor the largest single-table tournament in the history of poker.

The 43-week Mansionpoker.net Pokerdome Series is slated to debut on Sunday, May 15, 2006. A few weeks later, a six-person winner-take-all tournament takes place at the series’ first “mega-event” on July 12 in which the winner receives $60 million. Each player will buy in to the event for $10 million. Phil Ivey is the first person to sign up for the event. FSN will release a name of a participant a month until the entire field is set.

But that’s just the beginning.

The series will go on for the next three years and will be played in the soon-to-be-built “Pokerdome” arena. The Pokerdome will contain a poker table, complete with an automated card tracking system, integrated chip counting capabilities, hole card-cam, and robotic cameras focused on each player's face.

It will also come equipped with special cameras and card technology that allow viewers to see the burn cards before dealers flip the active cards, plus a rabbit-hunting camera for each hand, letting fans know what would have happened if each hand went to completion.

The first event will take place at the Crown Casino in Melbourne, Australia. The next two “mega-events,” which will be held in 2007 and 2008, will have prize pools of $75 million and $100 million.

Mansionpoker.net will be launched sometime in 2006.


12 days till xmas!! I've won $500 since Friday and that puts me + $2100 the last 2 weeks. For the first time in my semi-pro poker career I don't need my pay check on the 15th to pay bills. I hope this is the beginning of a full time pro career for me. We'll see. I'm playing a full 8 hrs tonight and I'm already +$100. As you can see Kassandra and I are ready for Christmas, are you?

Things are so good it's scary.

I'm up nearly $2,000 this week. I won $200 in less than an hour today. My relationship with Kassi is incredible, it's Christmas, and Taylor will be here soon. Life couldn't be going better, with the exception of someone who keeps antogonizing Kassi & I. I plan to play a full day tomorrow, I'll keep ya posted.

Enjoying the Fruits of My Labor...

I've had to work at my real job the last three days but I have managed to win another $150 since my last post in very limited play. Its very cold here, Im sure it is everywhere right now. Had a wonderful dinner with Kassi, her grand parents, and her family at the Aquarium cafe. What a neat place. I'd never been before. Taylor gets here in exactley one week. I'm so excited, especially since poker has provided my xmas bonus early this year. :)

Nothin like a $5 rebuy tournament to boost the bankroll..

Todays results
PokerStars Tournament #16033078, No Limit Hold'em
Buy-In: $5.00/$0.50
1206 players
Total Prize Pool: $26540.00
Tournament started - 2005/12/05 - 18:30:00 (ET)

Dear MICADOO,

You finished the tournament in 5th place.
A $1,406.62 award has been credited to your Real Money account.

You earned 267.15 tournament leader points in this tournament.
For information about our tournament leader board, see our web site at
http://www.pokerstars.com/tlb_tournament_rankings.html


Congratulations!
Thank you for participating.

I had a wonderful weekend with Kassi. This will help pay for it. lol

Rough Poker Week

I'm basically even since Vegas. Gave it all back. Too bad I spent some of it lol. If I only had winning entires in this blog, you would know that I'm not truly chronicling my poker life. Well its a new day and I still have a good bankroll. I just have a feeling about Sunday's big tourney on Poker Stars. I better play.Have a great weekend ,I will for sure!!!